e-livesalittle:

I’ve been trying to figure out what love is, but it’s just way too broad a topic and too amazing a concept for me to pin down. Or maybe I’m just not ready to write about that, especially now. But I think I’ve begun to realize what a relationship is not.

A relationship is not a security blanket….

“It is not a record of rights and wrongs.”


I don’t think this applies just to a relationship with a lover, or a companion for life. But also to friendship. 

I think as a good referral, or go-to. Even if it is so old. And some may think it is full of cheese. It rings true. 

Love is patient
Love is kind

It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud

It does not dishonor others
Its is not self-seeking

It is not easily angered

It keeps no records of wrongs

Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth

It always protects, always trusts 
Always hopes, always perseveres.

And in the case that there is a break up, I don’t necessarily think that the relationship stops. Perhaps love transcends in means invisible to the eye. Or at least, for those persons whom I have lost contact with or have no spoken to in so long. I still send them my love, and I think that somehow can make a difference.

Dear Elise, you will get through this just fine. I believe you will. :)

Today i will set aside whatever bothers me and will be focusing on fixing my presentation.

… I need paper.

“You never want to leave yourself suspecting that much of who you are, or who you could be, was left unexplored.”
Why we find certain things beautiful?

Why we find certain things beautiful? According to Wilhelm Worringer, a German art historian in the early 1900’s, we are drawn to things or find things beautiful when they express innately something which we lack.

Now, I don’t always think this to be the only instance. Another possible means for us to find something attractive is if these are familiar to us, or reflect values which we would like to uphold.

Another is if an artwork expresses ssomething which reflects our very own personality, or perhaps a part of our personality which may be very much projected or not.

A person can also develop an attraction towards a particular art work if she does not have a sense of her own definition of what she finds beautiful and thus will follow whatever society or those commercial marketers say is beautiful. These are the sheep of society who simply follow trends of what is considered “beautiful”.

I want to be someone who can express in her creation what she feels, what she values and as well what she envisions to be better in function for the future. I want to bring out as well in things, what can be projected of their characterisitic, what can be enhanced, instead of entirely shunning certain elements that superficially seem “not cut out” to be “beautiful” or “appealing”.

I rather think it would be a challenge to see what can be enhanced in what we find ugly. Isn’t that something that drives us to imagine, envision and eventually create?

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I am quite stressed out.
I don’t think it is going to do me any good if I discuss it however and so I would just rather not. Continue reading instead.

Happy that I got to purchase for myself some toiletries for the upcoming trip! The exfoliant worked with my skin and so now my face isn’t peeling anymore :D This is the Vitamin E Exfoliant from Body Shop. Hello to caramelized skin for graduation.

Among other things that ran through my mind today. I was just thinking about how much I think my dad and I disagree on certain things - with respect for the need for better livable working environment. I really think as someone who wants to eventually go through a phase of having her own place, it would be good to have utility areas I would really not mind using myself. I would go as far as ensuring and challenging myself to make the place a pleasure to use. It’s not like I should enforce such ideas to this household, so I guess I will just keep with suggesting and drawing what I can. They can decide for their own and I can just practice creating ideas for this and that. Win win.

I have been thinking about this a lot and I think that I will perhaps have to really post more. I think it should be a good way of reflection and hopefully lead me somewhere in a more focused manner.

In the meantime I need to continue feeding my mind and juicing it.

Things just don’t feel right.
1. I haven’t gone back to riding
2. I haven’t written whatever letters I need to write to quiet myself
3. I haven’t emailed Toni and said Hey guess what I’m Top 5 for thesis
4. I haven’t emailed Mr. Beelen about that either. I hate misunderstandings
5. I haven’t emailed MIG Architects, Gralla and the others places I would like to intern for
6. Neither NCEF for volunteer work
7. I haven’t sent my resume to Recio or Locsin
8. I haven’t been reviewing the Phantom songs
9. I just want to go away and paint
10. At the same time I know being alone is deadly for me
11. I haven’t renewed my passport
12. I haven’t corresponded with the farms in Texas and Ireland for training
13. I’m scared :(

Life Editing

I am in need of.
I want to have fun with!

Almost the same; just a different approach. I find it interestingly similar with the design process. I cannot design properly without writing firstly or sketching firstly ans then “transcribing” all the ideas onto a soft copy. I think what’s important for design is learning when it is best to use what.

:) Which one are you?

“I have watched both of you through a lot of those years and I have seen your passion for riding. I secretly envied both of you. Both your love for the sport, and the oneness you shared with these beautiful animals. In my opinion, you two were born to ride, Nina and Sasa.”

- And then I started crying. I haven’t cried for thesis even if I’m so behind schedule, I have never cried over the distance between Enzo and I. But this? My first love, just like what Sasa said. The first first love? I will miss and love, always.

riding is a commitment and a love! Your heart has to be whole and be a perfect pair with the horse you ride.” 

“I realised a long time ago that instrumental music speaks a lot more clearly than English, Spanish, Yiddish, Swahili, any other language. Pure melody goes outside time.”

- Carlos Santana

I have no time to feel sad - just keep swimming just keep swimming just keep singing 

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